Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Songs I've Written

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"Speak Of The Devil"

a song:

1)
Where do you go
when you're not with me?
Who do you see
when you're not seeing me?
Who do you smile at
with those eyes... that I
wish I never knew?

2)
Who grew the flowers
in the vase on your table?
Who props your pillow
and strokes all your moods?
Who is the one
you stare off in the distance to?
Who is the one
you leave here for?

Chorus:
I weave a little token
a blanket made of smoke
as the colors touch each other
I remember
the fire

3)
Who do I run to
when the road leads black?
Where do I surface
when hell freezes over?
Bleeding out passions
that I knew
once
Well... speak of the devil
Sphere of the devil
oh Babe it's you


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"I Fall For You"

a song:

1)
You could have had my soul for free
Never needed to pay
just to be here with me.
You always had a way
Roses for breakfast
and sleeping 'til noon
You...
me with you.

2)
You ask me how my life
could decay this way.
You never realized it was you
who
brought me to
this place
this place

Break:
I fall in love each time
I smell roses in June
I think of you
I remember your eyes
when the wind blows free
each time
your eyes on mine.
But this time
you left crumbs on the bed
and half filled glasses
of the cheapest wine
me
and the wine
left behind
with the things you said
I was hoping
I was hoping
you never meant.
Your eyes
I fall in love each time.

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"Neon Blue"

1) She seemed a walking wound,
a howl inside the moon.
Her colors mingled to an empty space,
a silent shattered tune.
Such plans amoung us,
we hardly recognized,
our host of bright lights,
had passed and left her prime.

Chorus:
Do you want to dance 'til noon
and fly across the moon?
Do you want to dance 'til noon
and follow Neon Blue?

And she cried Hold me,
hold me 'til my final hour.
Hold me,
hold me through the night.

2) My teeth chatter,
a warm day cold,
and in a moment,
just for comfort,

I reach for anything old
and hold it close,
all those sentimental tunes of Neon Blue.
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"Miles Away"

a song:

Chorus: It rains miles away, miles and miles away
It rains miles away, miles and miles away

1)
I don't want to steal your dreams away.
I don't want my presence to intrude...
on you.
I used a compass to find this place.
I used the moon to guide me through
your moods.
You say...
you're only miles away.

2)
She smiled and said, "Well yes I know,
there's an element that seems to grow,
in all of us.
I think you've learned
to talk very far.
You give the feeling that your sorrow never ends,
but it's not as if the rain didn't fall here too,
when it fell on you."

Chorus

3)
There is an element of conscience,
that keeps blowing thru cool winds,
and I think if you don't stop to listen,
I might lose before I win.
New things are hard to handle.
It's unclear of what's to gain,
But after all
its' like you say
you're only miles away.

Chorus

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"It Smells Like Silence"

a song:

1)
It smells like silence
The kind where no one cares
Your clothes are filled with the fragrance
of someone who left
If I wash them for you
will the memories be removed?
Or has all the fighting
that suffocates the loving
worn the deeper groove?

2)
It smells like silence
and isn't silence cold?
the ribbons have unraveled
no future to hold
A hint of life discarded
you packed and sent away
tidy little sentiments
of warmer days

Break:
I suppose I could wash these clothes
and no one will ever know
Only you ... for the fragrance will be gone
But then there's all that silence left behind
miles of better dreams and saner songs
mingled with the scenes of loveless eyes

It smells like silence
the kind where no one cares.

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"Mystie"

a song:

1)
There are places
that you've never been to
There are spaces
where you'll never go
There are passions
waiting to be lived yet
Mystie I know

chorus:
Mystie I know (four times in background)
When the rain falls
cold on my shoulder
Mystie I know (three times)

2)
Vacant eyes hold
tears that rest silent
faces scatter
a child needs to grow
and the wounded
continue their struggle
Mystie I know

chorus

"I Grasp A Circle"

(a song)

I touch the wind inside my eyes
I grasp a circle and I hold it tight
I close the door
and I form a simple key
to keep me in here
and you
out there

If there are other circles to the day
better memories on display
will you help me
to unwind them?
I'm bound to see them
don't you think
If I ponder on the moment long enough

Does time cease
do memories?

You may not use my memories
You may not misconstrue
because as they're unfolded
they are me
of course
and not you

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"Princess Hurry"

On this night
She took her eyes from the clear flight
buried her dreams in a sons light
wrapped up in patriots marching.

Approaching
the turbulent sound of a peace dove
handed her fate with a white glove
that hastily captured the moment.

....Hurry ....... hurry...

And truly
white doves were made to be trusted
stories were meant to be ended
she had her cause
she pretended

Her dreams
focused on whole hearted ventures
always her lover would enter
climb up the mountain
and take her.

.....Hurry.... hurry .....

I think
clouds should be noticed as dark signs
.... no time to waste
....so I'll....
......hurry
climb to the mountain
no time to waste
....hurry

Chorus:

(in soft voices in the background... continual)
No time to waste so I'll rescue the Princess
Hurry...... hurry

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"Without Blinking"

Last night I dreamed it
I hope it's not true
the shelter for many
had grown to quite few
No resting spaces
and no quiet time
they're closing up our borders
and standing by their lines
hoping the few who're left standing
will die
in little time

Oh my God
we're killing thousands
without thinking at all
Oh my God
we're killing thousands
without blinking

Some people have no faces
they live with withered hearts
they sing "Amazing Grace" only
because they know their parts

In a hungry lost world
it's not enough to say
I go to church on Sundays
and before I eat I pray
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" Till Time Is Right"

a song:

1)
We sat at the kitchen table
as her tears most freely fell.
She said she'd like to tell me
of a friend she'd never met.
Her husband had left years ago
upon her own request.
but since that time she's been alone
and alone is a lonely plan.

Chorus:

'Till time is right
'till time is right
we only have one life to live
but still the rules apply.
We'll wait
'till the time is right

2)
She had spied a stranger
while sitting in the sun.
The moment that their eyes locked
she felt her soul
undone.
A friend had planned a dinner
to introduce their lives.
Formal invitations
she waited
'till the time was right.

3)
One night she was out driving
along a lone ravine.
A car crash did seem suspect
a car that she had seen.
And when she called
and asked her friend
if what she feared was true
she said that yes..
he left a note to say
I'm lonely too.

Bridge:

Who knows why or when we'll meet again.
If we'll crawl or if we'll fly.
But I know one thing
that's clear
fell from my mother's eyes.

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"Where to Begin'

a song:

Complex emotions
tight fisted seas
turn around
be found
in a circle of hostilities.
Up in the air
no one cares
be free.. to be
anywhere.

I can't tell you all that you need to know to do
but I can tell you that the road goes through.
I can tell you what I mean
from my soul.
I can tell you
and you need to know...

So I can breath... again.

I fell in... to where to begin.
I fell in... to start again.

I need to breath... again.

Hand me those pages of notes
that I've told you.
Tell me the story.. though old.
I fell in
to the path overgrown
I fell in
to where to begin.

I need to breath... again.

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"Kuamoo Road"

a song:

There is a man who waits
at the stem of Kuamoo Road
and he is waiting
for his life
to begin.

There is a woman who sits in the dark
and she drinks all alone,
she is waiting for
her life
to end.

I stand alone
in shadows
and I sketch out their frames
sitting near
in the secret
of disguise.

I'll be a lilac
be at least a petal
or an amaranth
in their wake
I will treasure all
the lessons found
as I fly
so very far away.

Feb. 2000
Imperial Beach, CA

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"Break Not Your Heart"

a song:

1)
There will be times
and treasures I've known,
there will be rivers
melted from snow.

2)
There will be dreams
attached to autumn leaves,
there will be springtime
and reasons to flee.

Chorus:

And break not your heart
hold back the wounds
however inflicted
they were not meant for you.

3)
There will be seas
only airplanes and ships adorn
there will be silence
for a sorrow too worn.

4)
There will be sighs
as the ruler points wrong
yet... there will be comfort
in the rainbow of song.

Chorus

Break:

Time passes by
I plot to hear you call
and yet I know why
and have accepted it all.

Chorus

1996 Kauai

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"Gecko Song"

1)
Gecko gecko on the ceiling
waiting for that special feeling. Turned his head and he smiled at me
as I lied down and watched TV.
Then he gave a little sigh
as he dropped his do do in my eye.

Chorus:
Isn't that the way things go (2 times)

2)
I watched a man walk past my window
head turned down
he was on the go.
He never looked up
to view the sky
but he'll never know do do
in his eye.

He'd say,

Chorus:
Isn't that the way things go (2 times)

Heads up, stand up, get in line
move out, get out, watch the signs.
If you move through life
and ignore the view
you'll never know
what geckos do

Say now,

Chorus:
Isn't that the way things go (2 times)

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"So Goes The Time"

a song:

Dreams encircle my mind

live up to promises

stolen by time... take back the time

when dreams were young and you were mine.

Slide into shadow and waves

remembered by some

some.... who were young

remember the time, remember the time?

chorus:

Cherish the simple

the mood in my stead

reach out to love songs

stroking your breath.

I will be there

in all that you do

in all that you dream

and don't follow thru.

Dreams collide or abide

testing their way

some... will decay

but I... I miss you, the closeness of you.

A blow delivered by fate

she smiles and eyes know

and dance...to the rhymes

but I...will always remember the time, the time.

And so goes the time

so goes the time

and so goes the time.

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"In You"

a song:

1)
In you... I saw a vision fleeting by,
no tale nor reason to de-nigh
a dream so dim
yet waiting to begin.

2)
In you...the ships could sail behind your eyes
encase a world or hasten time.
The color blue...in you
casts another hue.

3)
And you... escaped my grasp
I cannot tell
If all is lost I wish you well
another time
where stories never rhymed.

4)
In you... I saw a vision fleeting by
in songs, in notes, in passers by,
a stories end
no longer to pretend
in you.
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Sunday, December 23, 2007

Portrait Prices-Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

* A portrait from photographs
* Oil painting on canvas
* One person, a couple, or the whole family
* Face only, or full figure with landscape background (prices vary/not reflected in prices below)
* Your human essence or your mermaid or faerie self.


Portrait from photos - Photographs offer boundless possibilities for creative poses, expressive gestures, and subtle detail. You may furnish your own photograph, (need to be approved by Kathy) of the pose you'd like painted, or have a private photo session with the artist and her photographer, husband, Dennis Magnusen. We recommend the a photography session.

Photo session with Kathy .......$75.


Price Guide

Oils (18 x 24")
one person
$900
each additional person
400


Oils (24 x 30" to 30 x 40")
one person
2000
each additional person
1000


Shipping and Care

Oils -
Your painting will be packed in a professionally custom-built container at a cost of the length plus the width of the stretched canvas (Example: an 18 x 24" costs $42.00 to pack) add Fedex cost to ship.

Oils won't fade or smear, and framing is optional. It is recommended that after six months of drying time, an oil painting be coated with varnish for a glossy finish and easy cleaning. High quality varnishes are available at art supply stores and can be sprayed or brushed on.

Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
free art gifts
http://www.kathysart.com





Hawaii News-Local artist featured at Pictures Plus

Local artist featured at Pictures Plus

Local Artist Kathy Ostman-Magnusen is being featured as "Artist of the Month" at Hilo's Pictures Plus for the month of December.

Pictures Plus store manager Alatia Adams, created wall space to allow local artists to show their work and interact with art lovers and Prince Kuhio Plaza, mall shoppers. Kathy Ostman-Magnusen was the featured artist for November and looks forward to showing her Hawaiian art through the month of December as well. Kathy is often seen enhancing her giclees or digital prints, near the entrance of Pictures Plus. She enjoys encouraging young artists and relates that she knew she would grow up to be an artist as early as four years old. She shares her belief that, "Talent is desire and the rest is practice ". She loves giving tips to budding talent no matter the age, saying that people are never to young or old to start doing art.

Kathy has dealt with disabilities that she says have actually given her strength. She relates that she in not defined by her disabilities, rather her approach to overcome them. Creativity is not only a great friend but a healer of the spirit, says Ostman-Magnusen.

Kathy Ostman-Magnusen is represented in New York by Monkdogz Urban Art. Her work opened in an International show, November 29th, showing until January 12, 2008 at Monkdogz in Chesea, right in the hubbub of the art world.

Her artwork can also be seen on her website http://www.kathysart.com


Recipes For Christmas




German Pancake Recipe - A Lot Like a Popover

I serve a wonderful German Pancake to company with a kiwi and a dash of powdered sugar for artistry. I don't just make it for company though, it is really easy so I in fact serve this yummy delight quite a bit. Below is my recipe.

I have no idea if this recipe is German or not, I am not even sure I would call it a pancake. I guess it it cause you top it with syrup. Is that what makes a pancake pancake?

Humm the dictionary defines pancakes as a thin, flat cake of batter, usually fried and turned in a pan. Pancakes are usually eaten with syrup or rolled up with a filling. Or as a noun a short stack of pancakes with maple syrup hotcake, flapjack, griddle cake, crepe, blintz; latke, potato pancake.

Blintzes.. umm, now those are darn nummy! I make cheese blinzes on occasion with cottage cheese or ricotta, an egg, vanilla and a tad of sugar tucked inside a folded up crepe. I top that with sour cream that has a tad of sugar and vanilla to it, along with some strawberry jam. I like mine with jam. I guess that's just me.

OK. back to my German Pancake, that is a lot like a popover, because of all the eggs and the way it rises.

"German Pancakes"

4 eggs
1/2 cup milk
1/2 cup flour
1/4 tsp. salt
2 Tbl. sugar

Mix all ingredients until un-lumpy. Grease two pie pans and pour a cup of the mixture into each pan. (I could have said add one half of batter to each but whatever right?) Bake at 450 degrees for fifteen to twenty minutes. Top with butter and jam or pancake syrup, or do as I do and serve it with a kiwi or some other fruit. Hey, a strawberry and kiwi would be really pretty for the holidays in December no? Add the powered sugar and it will look like snow! I love it!

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The Best Bean You've Ever Had - Crock Pot Cooking

To be honest, when a friend gave me this recipe I thought.. Yeah, humm and so. It just didn't sound all that great. She kept telling me to try it and I just kept dragging my feet. Then one night I had a bunch of people over for a pot luck and what do you think my friend brought? The "Best Bean You've Ever Had!". Now if you make these and don't think what I am saying is true, well then, we just have different taste buds I guess. These are not spicy beans, they are sweet. Try it anyway and don't drab your feet about it like I did. Hey! Maybe they are just the right thing for you to take to the next pot luck you attend. Smile.

The other very cool thing about this recipe is that it is a crock pot recipe. You just put it in the pot, turn it on all day and let it do its wonderful magic. Besides having a wonderful meal at the end of the day your house will smell glorious all day!

And now.. ta da! the recipe that I have built up to be so fabulous:

"The Best Bean You've Ever Had"

Fry together and then drain off the fat (yuk to fat right?)

3 strips of bacon
1 chopped onion
1 pound ground beef

In a crock pot add meat mixture and then add to that the following:

1- 31 oz. Van Camps Pork and Beans
2- 15 oz. butter beans (drained)
1- 15 oz. kidney beans (drained)
1/2 cup brown sugar
1 TBl. Liquid Smoke (I had never heard of this either if this is new to you)
3 TBl. Vinegar
1 1/4 cup Ketchup
Salt and pepper to taste

Simmer on low all day. Don't ya just ADORE crock pots?




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Vegetarian or not, come this way, this is so nummy. This recipe is vegetarian so you meat eaters might want this with a beef, pork, or whatever meat steak. This is not a recipe for Vegans though, I have not gotten there yet unless I fill up on vegetables and fruit. Hey! what a concept, vegetables and fruit. One should always remember the basics if one wants to stay healthy right?

Years ago for about nine months I was a vegetarian. I bought a lot of veggie stuff.. veggie hot dogs, veggie patties, unknown what they were supposed to be really , anyway you get the picture right? I wanted to be a vegetarian for the animals. I felt to so guilty and I guess I still do, but I eat meat again and I guess close off that part of me that worries about it. Once in awhile I make this dish just because I love it. The consistency is very meaty actually. Try it, I think you will like it Micky!

"Oatmeal Mushroom Steak"

1 TBL. vegex (like a bouillon cube)
1/2 cup hot water
1 tsp. sea salt (yes if you are gonna be healthy make it sea salt, smile)
1/2 sage or poultry seasoning
1 onion chopped
3 TBL. Butter (I always use real butter, the flavor cannot be compared)
3 eggs well beaten
1 can cream of mushroom soup
2 soup cans - hot water
1 can mushrooms (I know, I can 'hear' you, canned stuff isn't all that healthy)
2 1/4 Cup uncooked old fashioned oatmeal

Saute the onions in the butter. Combine all except the mushroom soup, 2 cans of hot water and vegex. Mix well. Cover and let it stand for about 45 minutes. Mold the mixture into small meal size patties and fry in hot oil until golden brown. (Gads another unhealthy thing, stop thinking so loud! I can hear you all the way to Hawaii). Pour a little of the soup mixture (all the stuff you did not use to make the patties) in the bottom of a 9x12 baking dish to cover the bottom. Arrange patties on top of mixture and cover the rest with the soup mixture.
Bake at 350 degrees for 1 hour.

Yay, you are done.

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Someone gave me this recipe about twenty years ago. I copied it off in her kitchen on a little recipe card. My friend had served it to me and I said, "I MUST have this recipe!" You know how that goes? You taste it and think to yourself I gotta have this at least once a week.

One of my sisters says that when chocolate cake is in the house she wake up in the morning, head still on her pillow, her eyes open wide and she immediately has a HUGE smile on her face. Both my sister and I are prone to eating chocolate cake in the morning. What am I saying? We are prone to eating chocolate day and night! We are truly chocolate connoisseurs. Yes, expert judges in matters of taste. HUGE smile.

The recipe below is unique because it is made from scratch, I know.. stop thinking about the trouble and think of the outcome, besides, it truly is not that much trouble. The other thing that is unique about it is that it takes boiling water to make it. Once everything is put together you pour boiling water over it and mix. Crazy huh? and most definitely if not defiantly unique!

"Evon's Chocolate Cake" (who is Evon? I have absolutely no idea!)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees

Mix together:

2 cups sugar
6 TBL. butter
1/2 tsp. salt
2 tsp. vanilla

Add:

2 eggs ....and mix well

Sift together: (yes you gotta sift it. It will turn out weird if you don't, sorry)

6 TBL. unsweetened cocoa powder
2 cups flour
2 tsp. baking powder
2 tsp. soda (and you know what happens if you don't mix soda or baking powder in with the dry stuff right?
.. weird tasting stuff, very strange chemical reactions and ewww! horrible, thats what!)

Mix Both ingredients together.

Add slowly as you stir ( you might ask someone to help you)

2 cups boiling water

Pour into your already prepared with butter and flour, oblong approx. 9x12 pan.
Bake for 45-50 minutes (test with a toothpick or whatever)

After you take it out of the oven?

COVER IT with aluminum foil until it cools.

This is a very moist cake! You can add frosting if you want to of course. Some people just can't handle cake without frosting, but normally this cake is served without it. HUGE SMILE.

Dragon Drawings and a Tattoo Gallery




Dragon drawing,tattoo gallery
fairy tattoos,tribal tattoos
butterfly tattoos
I want them all!
I want them to wear to a party.

I feel jealous of the dragon
and so do you.
I do not care that you won't admit it.
I don't believe you.

I want to go to parties
dress up like a jester
wear a mask of feathers
butterfly tattoos
tribal tattoos
let the fire flow
let my dance fight for me.

I am tired
of being tired
I am slow to see it
too late
too bad
and the tinges of sadness
golden cages I cannot open
never or ever.

I wish I was a dragon
I wish I was that strong
I wish that I could yell my stories
make them real
fold up all the trees
as beautiful as they are
they block my view
I want to see a bigger story.

I want to go to parties
scream out songs
wear nothing at all
maybe just a ruby on my cheek.
I want to go to a tattoo gallery
count their fairy tattoos
on other people maybe me
I want to fly free
and not care about anything at all.
I want to drink till I cannot stand
cut the ribbon in the hallway.

I keep secrets
so do you so do not act so proud
who do you think you are?

I think the train is coming
I hear it rushing toward me.
I will stand in front of it
till that last moment
then calmly step away
just like before.

I missed out
it comes down to that
I want to go to parties.
I want a tattoo
maybe a fairy
maybe a star
maybe a tribal tattoo
I want to go to a tattoo gallery.

Of course there are good days
filled with natures gifts.
I did not and do not miss that.
Quit telling me.
I am tired of hearing explanations
I am tired of know it all people
I am tired of me being one
I want to go to a party.
I want to be wild.

I feel jealous of the dragon
I hold my dragon drawings
I want to breathe his power
I want to yell sometimes
I think maybe I will take me out of this box
build me back
start to find that spark.

I feel jealous of the dragon
and so do you.
I do not care that you won't admit it.
I don't believe you.

Just down the hallway
there you are
just as I thought
counting the days
and all your pennies.

Dragon drawing,tattoo gallery
fairy tattoos,tribal tattoos
butterfly tattoos
take them out of the closet
I want them all!

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
28 March 2007


"Beautiful Older Women Galleries-Beautiful Women in Competition"





"Beautiful Older Women Galleries-Beautiful Women in Competition"

Gothic angel art
fine art paintings reproductions
beautiful older women galleries
beautiful women in competition
do I fit in?
I line my canvases up in a hallway
picture them there
anywhere
does awe come their way?

I set out to meet the day
creativity reaches for me
rainbows or clouds
I cannot tell as yet.
Fine art paintings
reproduction of my heart.
The sun is showing its head
I smile on past accomplishments.
I am an aritst.

My gothic angel art
my unicorns of crystal
a pegasus I did ride here.
I see beginnings
the gate that leads me to survival.
My lessons are in the doing.
I am an artist.


There is a darkness in me
late at night
still.
I paint by candles
ablaze by my own passion.
Gothic angels
whimsical angels
and older woman
I guess I am all of them.
I am an artist.

It is a toss up
will my frailties trump me
will I bend
will I fly?
I lean toward opportunities
beautiful older women
and their galleries of age
ageless.
The Universe does smile on them
and hand them notes in the hallway.
I patiently wait for mine.
I am an artist.

I can be anything
still
it is never too late!
Fine art
painting reproductions
not my aim
I search to find my inner being.
An artist's brush full of paint
colors bright and fresh
I become everything new.
I am an artist.


Gothic angel art
fine art paintings reproductions
beautiful older women galleries
beautiful women in competition
do I fit in?

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
23 March 2007

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Grim Reaper Artwork and a Fairies Illustrations-Please, Make It Rain




"Please, Make It Rain-Grim Reaper Artwork and a Fairies Illustrations"


I want to feel passion
find a fairies illustrations
grim reaper artwork
I want to make it rain
yet I am almost sick of the word.
it is not enough
words not met by deeds.
Pictures cut out from magazines
pasted on the floor
I want to walk in their gardens.

I hear the ground
those before me
I am humbled.
I hear their voices
they speak of lost days
grim reaper artwork
so why
do I...
lose them?

I stroke my own hair
hear me breathing
I am not sure it is really me
and yet
I am a fantasy fairy in a snow filled jar.
A bench sits in the middle of the ocean
my brush is filled with aqua.
I remove tight fitting muzzles
lest bright colors fly away.
I always seem to miss the signs
and yet
I will try to spy them now
lest I die.
One cannot control adventures
nor define them
a fairies illustrations
but I will try none the less.

I count the days
grim reaper
but I am not sure why
maybe because
I count my paintings.

I hear the breaths of tombs.
They did not know their shadow
before their passing.
And ohhh...
I hear their complaints
making rain
I guess I am one.
I sing in harmony.
How many failures can one accept
and still be noticed?

Let me climb from this jar
let me taste the stamen of a flower
touch my tongue on a tiny miracle
stave off honey bees
stand firm
this story is meant for me.

Pleasantries are gone in winter
it feels too cold for smiles.
I will seclude myself
till the snow is past
and no longer floating free
in unopened jars full of water
filled to the brim with wishes
for fantasy fairies like me.

I am a tear
yet I have added a second blanket
and should be fine.

Voices
everywhere
I stop
I hear...
grim reaper illustrations
calling out for drops of water.
And ever so timely
bringing umbrellas to cover
voices from the ground.

14 April 2007
by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

Photo Puzzles and A Wing In the Fire of Moods-Those Country Song Lyrics




Country Song Lyrics-Photo Puzzles and A Wing In the Fire of Moods

I came across a woman
she shared no emotions that felt kind
not with me.
Country song lyrics came to mind.
No smiles
no eyes that said today could be special.
No energy
except for her own sullenness
her own self indulgence.

I became someone in parenthesis.
No matter my life may have in fact known darker days
she would never know.
I don't suppose it really matters.
It is not as if she and I would ever be friends.

Yet the day would have
could have
had a softer presence.

It take so little really
just a little smile
a simple recognition.
It takes so little to rise to the occasion
see life outside of ones own breath.
Photo puzzles deciphered
country lyrics understood
just one wing in the fire.

I have thought of her
on an off
since that day I saw her sitting
slumped over
measuring my worth?
I am not sure of that.
I would not want to be unfair.

There was a breeze that day
I heard it gently in my ear.
It touched me through my hair.
I was reminded of different days
hard days
difficult days
a wing
just one left behind
and in the fire
more than a country lyric
more than a bad song.
Sad days
photo puzzlels
never finding their place on the shelf.
Days I did not want to be in.

I then thought about that woman
decided to give her the benefit of the doubt
reasons to be sullen.
Paths I could not be savvy to.
One never knows.

Yet
oh
and yet
I want to feel the rain
the breeze
share smiles
no matter what.
Hope beyond
a wing that burns
have a glint in my eye
to share
even if no one looks up.

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
15 April 2007

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Fine Art Whimsical Angel Commissions and Me

Whimsical musicians artwork, map faery tale adventure,whimsical sitting bride and groom... all these treasures waiting in the doorway.

My Whimsical Musicians Artwork Does Map Faery Tale Adventures- An Excuse for Passion

An Excuse for Passion and Ribbons That Sway...

This excuse for passion
map faery tale adventure
go ahead
make those ribbons sway.
Whimsical musicians artwork
Did you give thanks?
Did you think you were magic?
Whimsical sitting bride and groom
songs in the morning...
I guess I thought you were once too.

Will you run to the store for me?
whimsical musician
pick up those things I love?
Will you run?
Map a faery tale adventure?

Remind me to give you a gift in return
or at least a trace of one
this bride
this groom.
My generosity is shortcoming
fine art whimsical angel commissions
though justified in its seclusion
I think we will agree.

The breezes I find here
comforting I guess.
I thought i'd find a gift somewhere
my bride
my groom
but no.

The breezes I find here
sacred
holy
yet only
breezes.

Blood drips down from the entry
no matter the cost.
You have survived
tell me so I can sleep tonight.

There is mold on your charms
I mark the path
it is a ruthless war.

There was a stranger
I hear he was sleeping
I am bleeding
again
in the hallway
but I am none the less wiser.

Who will tell the story when blood is gone?

I'll test your hands for bleeding
yours or mine
no going back.

You would think that someone would say something
wouldn't you?
make a map of a faery tale adventure?
But no
no big talk here.
I will accept to sorry answers
no folded flowers
no matter the color.

I hope to see you again
or maybe me
in this comfort zone
gentle zone I formed with sand.

I've narrowed it down at least
made lists
still incomplete
yet I live here.
People move
pardon the mess
I am on my way
I will be whole no matter what i think right now.

Ahh the blood stain
that you left behind
you were looking for another victim
and something sacred to hide
I bend to those conclusions
yet still
all the while
I paste bandages over my mouth.

Seclusion
my martyr
do we need an ambulance?

I am still thinking of your voice
or someone's
whimsical musicians artwork
yet I do not hear those good intentions
no matter how hard I listen.
They have been left by the wayside
that I am now.

This voice
it says to run.
All I can say is...
how?
You seem to see my reflection
every where I go
I do go.

This voice has rivers
they flow over
but freezes in the winter.

Where is winter?

My best friend
time out
winter
my best friend.

I am embedded in the moon
I did not admit to it before
and yet I am.

The cloud that succumbs me
hides me in the shadows.
Its not about me or you
no bell to chime.
Don't count on me
whimsical musicians artwork
or stupid rhymes in poems.
No one that I know can feel their breathing.

Such a bad predicament
I continue to repair it.
No dollies here though
no hair to comb
no smudges patched
no
real love tells you to fly
fly
home.
Fine art whimsical angel commissions
and me.

16 April 2007
by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

Fine

Whimsical musicians artwork, map faery tale adventure,whimsical sitting bride and groom... all these treasures waiting in the doorway.

My Whimsical Musicians Artwork Does Map Faery Tale Adventures- An Excuse for Passion

An Excuse for Passion and Ribbons That Sway...

This excuse for passion
map faery tale adventure
go ahead
make those ribbons sway.
Whimsical musicians artwork
Did you give thanks?
Did you think you were magic?
Whimsical sitting bride and groom
songs in the morning...
I guess I thought you were once too.

Will you run to the store for me?
whimsical musician
pick up those things I love?
Will you run?
Map a faery tale adventure?

Remind me to give you a gift in return
or at least a trace of one
this bride
this groom.
My generosity is shortcoming
fine art whimsical angel commissions
though justified in its seclusion
I think we will agree.

The breezes I find here
comforting I guess.
I thought i'd find a gift somewhere
my bride
my groom
but no.

The breezes I find here
sacred
holy
yet only
breezes.

Blood drips down from the entry
no matter the cost.
You have survived
tell me so I can sleep tonight.

There is mold on your charms
I mark the path
it is a ruthless war.

There was a stranger
I hear he was sleeping
I am bleeding
again
in the hallway
but I am none the less wiser.

Who will tell the story when blood is gone?

I'll test your hands for bleeding
yours or mine
no going back.

You would think that someone would say something
wouldn't you?
make a map of a faery tale adventure?
But no
no big talk here.
I will accept to sorry answers
no folded flowers
no matter the color.

I hope to see you again
or maybe me
in this comfort zone
gentle zone I formed with sand.

I've narrowed it down at least
made lists
still incomplete
yet I live here.
People move
pardon the mess
I am on my way
I will be whole no matter what i think right now.

Ahh the blood stain
that you left behind
you were looking for another victim
and something sacred to hide
I bend to those conclusions
yet still
all the while
I paste bandages over my mouth.

Seclusion
my martyr
do we need an ambulance?

I am still thinking of your voice
or someone's
whimsical musicians artwork
yet I do not hear those good intentions
no matter how hard I listen.
They have been left by the wayside
that I am now.

This voice
it says to run.
All I can say is...
how?
You seem to see my reflection
every where I go
I do go.

This voice has rivers
they flow over
but freezes in the winter.

Where is winter?

My best friend
time out
winter
my best friend.

I am embedded in the moon
I did not admit to it before
and yet I am.

The cloud that succumbs me
hides me in the shadows.
Its not about me or you
no bell to chime.
Don't count on me
whimsical musicians artwork
or stupid rhymes in poems.
No one that I know can feel their breathing.

Such a bad predicament
I continue to repair it.
No dollies here though
no hair to comb
no smudges patched
no
real love tells you to fly
fly
home.

16 April 2007
by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

Leonardo da Vinci and Me

I take a notebook with me everywhere I go now, just like Leonardo da Vinci. It sure has made a difference. I used to fear I would not be able to come up with fresh ideas. Now, with this notebook by my side I can't seem to shut them off. I almost feel kind of coo coo at times to be honest.


Map faery tale adventures
tiny angels to light your way.
Mystical fairies give advice on life's stumbling blocks
promise nothing
except to tell you what is logical.
Take it all with a grain of salt
sprinkle it with fairy dust.
whimsical musicians artwork
map faery tale adventure
whimsical sitting bride and groom
what an excuse for making fancy cakes.
See Leonardo see?

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"Spring Cleaning Yard and Flower Bed - A Poem About Spring Cleaning"





"Spring Cleaning Yard and Flower Bed - A Poem About Spring Cleaning"

or

"Spring Cleaning Yard and Flower Bed-Flower Faires Garden Ornaments-Tis A Poem About Spring Cleaning"

Fairies stand round
giggle with glee
tis a poem about spring cleaning.
I'll post in on my fridge.
I'll use a magnet of tin
now shiny after my buffing it.
A magnet of a daisy
green leaves, yellow center
and wonderful white petals.
He loves me
he loves me not.

Flower fairies
garden ornaments
spring break
set in place.
Spring cleaning
yard and flower bed
everything ready for summer.
Fairies come out to feel the freshness
smiles are everywhere.

Simple and clean
it did not take as long as I thought
and oh!
I am rewarded by the calmness it brings.
I feel freer somehow
just knowing things are in their place
closer to what ornaments looked like
when first bought.

Leaves of fall taken away
the ones that were left over
green is invited to sing here once again.

My garden is ready for new plantings
zucchini, lettuce and string beans
fresh corn from its husk
my garden is clean for my labor
smile
HUGE smile.
A flower fairy
and garden ornaments
of well cared for sentiments.

Spring cleaning
yard and flower bed
tis such a lovely delicate site.
Fantasy fairies sing
honeybees are ready to do their job
as i just finished mine.

Tis fitting
a poem about spring cleaning
when the day knows dusk
all the flowers will sing a song
in the morning
and I will feel the freshness
not felt as brightly yesterday.

Sing my little fantasy fairies
bring granny cookies
ice tea and your sun bonnet
tis spring alas today
I write you a letter
with a poem about spring cleaning.

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
17 April 2007

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Grim Reaper Drawings and Childhood Mentors in the Doorway





Grim Reaper Drawings and Childhood Mentors in the Doorway

He said she'd sing in the dark
grim reaper drawings
pasted in a notebook
hearing voices...
and I believed him.

I believed in her.

I pinned up her picture as my muse.
I played her music
even though there was no sound.

I held her picture
only for seconds at a time
because it seemed to be burning.

My blanket made of smoke
this reaper
to me the greater sacrifice
to you a cover from the dark.

Such a pitiful dress now
isn't it?
Bonds to wounds
too thin to be called healthy.

I stole their weapons once
grim reaper drawings
clowns of decent
jesters.
I captured what I thought was their goodness.
It was not of course
twas only a white horse arriving in the doorway
greeted by everyones laughter.

Don't sacrifice till you are sure of the outcome.
Don't make any pledges
just for now
OK?
It may not be hopeless
but at the very least
we will know enough to mark the trail.

I will not shy away from such tragedies
heartaches made informal
dismissed
no matter how poignant.
Such a woeful thing
being set on the shelf
in a room made empty.

Gather all the masks then
I will not hold it against you.
I will only wash the napkins as you use them.

This meal
this monster you seem to mentor
will post the earliest retreat
pin reminders on the wall
to hide the children in the closet.

Innocence being the easiest to defeat
hopefully someday
someone
will unwrap the colors
and let them out to feel the rain again.

I will line up all my little paintings
grim reaper drawings
set them in a row and wait.
I will hold a seance
despite a child's objection:
"I am not dead as yet
please keep my vigil sacred
do not swallow the key
lest someone drown
and forget from where I call."

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
27 April 2007

Cats and Dogs

Maxwell bites the cats feet
when she thinks I am not looking
She wants to make them run
they do.
She wants to be top dog
she is.
she is the only dog
but in her mind she is a wolf from the forest
no matter she only stands twenty inches.

Charlotte or Gracie killed a fledgling
not one single flight will that bird know.
I found it on the walkway
ants taking away its lifeless tomb
leaving only tiny feathers.
Gracie checks the yard for more.
Two cats on the prowl doing what cats do.
Sad though.
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Resting In Lily's Arms and other Holy Spaces





I covered my ears
spent the rest of the day silent
sifting through memories
and burning old letters.
I chasten the tag a longs
those things that haunt
they crowd out my mentors

The meanings seem translucent now
Do not waste those lessons
note them well
post them on the refrigerator
with a magnet made of ice.

I fell into this holy space
resting in my Lily's calm.
I wonder if she knew it.
Maybe
in time.
I have learned a lot
and am still searching.
Lily is me
and I am Lily
and everyone else.

The struggle was not in the forgiving
not on Lily's part
the struggle was in accepting forgiveness
and counting herself worthy of such a gift
of being made to feel whole again.
Being able to say those words
"I love you"
how could she dare?
How could I?
She simply was not worthy
not to her
and it was assumed by her
not to anyone else.
No she would not say them
not for a very long time.
She could not see that flower
and I was not allowed in the garden.

Knowing every single day
that Lily would be here
her loyalties needed to be well spent.

Resting in my Lily's arms
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